Welcome to 2009!!
It would be impossible for me to adequately describe how happy I am to be here. I’m glad you’re here, too.
You see, here’s the thing I realized over my Winter Break: you don’t actually have to keep up with the present. In fact, being in the present can be remarkably hard. It’s often a lot easier to live in the future, when things will surely be much easier; or in the past, where everything is familiar.
I spent a big chunk of my life stuck in the past or fantasizing about the future. So I’m really, really happy to be in 2009.
Another thing that I’m happy about? That I’m me.
In 2008, I spent a lot more time than is healthy comparing myself to others, and usually it wasn’t a flattering comparison. Envy is the classic Sin of an enneagram 4, so it’s probably not too surprising that in a year that stretched me to my limits, I drifted into measuring my own happiness, success and value using other people as a warped yardstick.
I knew better. I didn’t do better. But fortunately, that was 2008. And now I’m nestled snug as a bug in a rug in 2009, where I like myself. Chris Brogan? Liz Strauss? Valeria Maltoni? Jason Falls? Amber Naslund? Jake McKee? Brian Clark? I like you all, too. Over this last year, you’ve all been terrific mentors to me, most of you probably without ever knowing it (one or two of you, without ever even actually knowing me!)
But right now, I’m truly enjoying being Kat French (which is, as a friend recently told me, “A name so cool, people want to use it as an alias.”)
In the immortal words of Sly & the Family Stone: “I wanna thank you fallettinme be mice elf.”
Something has happened over Winter Break. I’ve got my equilibrium back.
It may be because I took good care of myself, got lots of rest, exercised and took my vitamins. Possibly some of it is due to the fact that we no longer have houseguests, so it’s a bit easier to recharge my batteries at home. It could be due to the fact that I stayed pretty clear of the internet, email, Twitter, and Google Reader for the duration of it (except to work a bit on the new theme here and a cool project for my church).
This year, I’m not doing resolutions, because the root word of “resolution” is “resolve,” and frankly, my resolve sucks. Resolve is what you use to force or coerce yourself into doing something that you don’t really want to do.
I do, however, have some intentions for 2009.
Chris and I have had some fantastic conversations over the break, and our first, shared intention for 2009… is to be more intentional about nearly everything in our lives.
We’re both fairly easygoing, conflict-avoidant people. So we’ve realized that a lot of the things in our lives aren’t there because we intended them to be. We just sort of ended up with them.
Many of these things were true blessings at the time we received them, but in the intervening years, we let our gratitude for them breed a certain amount of complacency. Things which were once blessings have become burdens, and we need to let them go, and pursue (in an open-handed, non-graspy way) better things.
I intend to manage my attention constructively, using the tools I’ve already learned and previously practiced with some success.
I intend to honor my mom’s memory by taking more responsibility for my health and wellness. Daily exercise, daily vitamins, and adequate sleep is my starting point. I’ll build on that when those things have become an established habit. (I’m now a week in. Check back with me on Day 21.)
I intend to spend more time working from my strengths. Further developing my writing skills, possibly by self-publishing an eBook. Finding opportunities to apply my background in acting, radio announcing and public speaking skills towards presenting, podcasting and training.
I intend to focus on nurturing a few important relationships into greater depth–an attitude more consistent with my personality and temperament than trying to get the high score in Social Media Popularity Pinball.
I intend to practice the unforced rhythms of grace. I could give a rip less about productivity-as-high-score-game. But I am currently all about my days having an order and a natural rhythm to them that allows me to make better use of my creative energy. Music without pattern is just sound. Even jazz needs a meter.
That’s a lot of intentions for one year. But this year has potential–I can feel it. I’ve got potential I haven’t tapped yet. I can feel that, too.
You have potential. This could be your year. More on that later.