Okayyyyy. If I had known getting on the right dosage of a good antidepressant/antianxiety med would have had this effect on my life, I’d have done it a long time ago. I’m now at about two months since I started really taking the med religiously, and my creative output is at an all time high.
I don’t feel “up” all the time, I don’t feel “medicated”–I just feel normal. Which, for me, is highly abnormal. I can concentrate and focus. And I think it comes of getting on the medication after working for a good solid year on my inner child issues and my Constructive Living techniques before going on the meds. My experiences nearly a decade taught me that relying on meds for coping, without learning better skills and without getting at the root causes of the coping problems, just allows them to build up until they reach Irwin Allen-movie proportions.
But using the better skills and resolving many of my issues basically was like typing away at an old manual typewriter. It got the job done, allowed me to function, but I sure as heck wasn’t going to be producing a binding-worthy copy of War and Peace that way. Using the meds and the therapy in unison is like being an audience member on Oprah and finding a shiny new iBook under my seat!
Well, back to creating and getting stuff done! Whoopeee! 🙂 If I’d known being normal was this much fun, I’d have tried it decades ago.