So, I joined the YMCA this week.
We’re really blessed in that we now have a beautiful facility in New Albany that’s right on my way to work. So I signed up Tuesday, worked out about 15 minutes, showered and managed to get to work on time.
Over the holiday, it became abundantly clear that over the course of December, my depression had slowly crept up and taken over again. It tends to do that; one month I’m fine and dandy, and a few weeks later I’m struggling to get out of bed daily.
I don’t know why I continue to be surprised and caught off guard by a condition I’ve been diagnosed with for most of my adult life. One would think I’d have gotten better at recognizing it by now. At any rate, over the holiday break, Chris and I had a couple of really productive discussions. He was gracious, but I could tell he was getting really concerned about me. He echoed my feelings for most of the first year after his diagnosis of diabetes. It’s hard to watch someone you love just flat-out refuse to manage a health condition you know could kill them if they let it go long enough.
So I’m going into this wellness project without any particular weight loss goal and without the scale being my enemy, because it’s genuinely not about getting into a size 6. It’s about adjusting my borked-up brain chemistry.
I’m doing a few other things as well that have worked well for me in the past.
A big theme for me this year is going to be “application.” I’m a person who is in permanent beta. I’m always learning. But what I don’t always do is dedicate a focused period of time applying specific new knowledge for a particular outcome.
So I end up with an overflowing toolbox of shiny strategies, tactics and tools that never get much use.
I know exercise helps me focus, helps maintain my brain chemistry in a happy zone, and gives me the energy I need to take on everything else. So that’s a tool that I’m adding to the “apply with consistency” list.
Still working on the rest of the list. Will let you know how that goes.
What about you? What are you hoping to apply with more consistency this week, month, year?